Why do I hate cops so much?

I've never had trouble with the law, but I freaking hate cops. Like violently hate. As if they were my enemy. I'm not entirely sure why. Just seeing a cop makes me uneasy. Talking to them makes rage build up in me. When they get authoritative it makes me wanna do things which I'll leave to your imagination. I find myself looking for YouTube videos of cops getting beat up. Seeing them lose a fight is pleasant to me. It's getting awkward because my cousin is a cop now. Also my second cousin. I don't know why I hate them so much. And no, I'm not ignorant of why they exist.